Recently I had a lightening bolt moment about my blog. I have been blogging for over a year & still haven’t achieved the kind of ‘groove’ of regular posts I’d have liked to. I hoped that having somewhere to post to & get feedback would help motivate me to write, but alas it was not so. I have written a lot more, but seldom have I come up with a post that I’m really pleased with & delighted about when I click ‘publish’.
I do have a tendency to be hard on myself so need to check my expectations of little ol’ me sometimes; in this instance I just know I can do better. I wracked my heart for the reason I was getting satisfaction out of this exercise. Asked why I wasn’t improving when I was mindful of wanting to write/ blog more on a daily basis. Then I hit on it: I have been writing someone else’s blog instead of my own. I wasn’t writing as anyone in particular, but I wasn’t entirely writing as myself either. I read & enjoy a lot of blogs, & of quite a varied genre, & I guess I thought I wanted to join their throngs. I often think about sharing recipes, but am not a food blogger; I edit a bunch of photo’s & don’t post them, not a photographer you see. I knew from the beginning of my blog that ‘they’ say you should start off knowing what you want to blog about, & I thought I did. I wanted to share weekend snaps & holiday news, creative DIY & book reviews – but I never did. I too had a fledgling creative business & was braving the new world of self-employment, but somehow I never share much of that either.
So I’ve come to terms with ‘myself’ a little more, & the kind of writer or blogger that I want to be, at the moment anyway. I’m not the girl who’s going to elite functions & reporting on how delightfully/ insufferably hipster they are, or the one spotting a new range in Mr P that has pants *just* like the ones I saw on the Zara website last week. I probably won’t share any life-changing quinoa recipes with you (though I’m grateful for them), nor will I be re-modelling my kitchen with mis-matched antique items from Milnerton Market (though I’d love to). These are some of the things I love to read about, (Have a look at my blog roll —->) & I assumed they would hence be what I’m drawn to write about; not so. Not at all.
I realise I still haven’t hit on what I will in fact be writing about! A dear friend of mine often used to say, “A no is 50% as good as a yes”, I am at least half way there. I do have an inkling what the content will look like. I am resolved to devote real time to some honest writing once again & am curious to see what transpires.
As is fitting, look out for a new post on Saturday.